But even though I tried to step away from my imaginary world and characters, they kept intruding. For the last week, the fourth installment has been plaguing me. It is often the first thing I think of, when I wake in the middle of the night with a scene or a bit of dialogue I must pen before I forget the details. It is on my mind constantly, on the edges of my subconscious as I go about my daily routine. It is the last thing I think of as I curl next to husband at night.
I’m not sure what I was thinking when I decided that Bethany’s story had to be told in a series. Obviously, I wasn’t thinking about how much work was involved or how daunting a task I was about to embark upon. The only thing I was thinking was that the story had to be told in a certain order, an order that made sense to me.
Now I am in the most difficult stage for the fourth installment is crucial. It explains what happened, how everything became so muddled for the heroine. It goes back in time. Time. I love speculative fiction because we writers can do so much with time and space. We can make our own rules, bend them at will and create new myths. But it is time consuming and I feel it is often unfair for the readers.
I am a reader myself and I detest waiting for an installment. I do not like to wait; I do not like cliffhangers or unanswered questions. It’s not just in my readings either. I do not watch any kind of syndicated programming. I wait until the end of the season and buy the program so that I may sit down and watch it in its entirety. True Blood, season four, will be out May 29th, just in time for my Easter Holiday break from school. It’ll take me two days of dedicated watching to finish the season. No interruptions, no waiting, no wondering what happens next. Instant gratification.
With that kind of mindset, I become obsessive with my own writing. I want to finish the DeDe series. I need to finish the DeDe series. The goal is to have the fourth installment done by the end of the year. That is the goal I have set for the public record. My personal goal is drastically shorter but since I am extremely superstitious, it will remain personal and private.